I have an aspiration to become OCD. I mean in the real sense – obsessive compulsive as opposed to the OCD I already have which is really ‘obsessive chaotic dissorganizational disorder’. – that would actually be OCDD Wouldn’t it. see- I cant even organise those letters appropriately!
I really don’t want to be obsessive. Obsessive isn’t a good thing to be - about anything - I really just want to…. ummm… make things in my life somewhat more in control than they typically are. That is not to say that I want to control people or even things – I have evolved enough to know that at best, control, in that sense, is an illusion.
let me start here. Recently I’ve taken to listening to pod-casts en route to the office. This, by the way is to keep my mind off of the ‘joy of life sucking traffic’ that has threatened to obscond with my sanity. Anyway, my friend M (not as in James bond ‘M ‘ – just M as in an initial) often speaks about this or that she’s heard on a podcast and this came to mind one night after a particularly harrowing traffic experience and I said to my self… ”self, perhaps a podcast would distract me from the JOLST – you – I – We should try that “ we all agreed and looked for and found a likely suspect in “Alison Rosen is Your New Best Friend ” .
So. I have been happili-er commuting to alison’s podcast for a few weeks and even though it is dating/relationship themed, I am enjoying the conversations she has with her guests so much that I often wish I could be a part of the conversation or alterntely, am inspired to want talk about something the podcast has made me think about.
The guest I listened to on yesterday’s ride, James Gunn, is who inspired the whole OCDD thing. Oh, and by the way, I am not listening to the pod-casts in order and I am concerned that once I catch up and have heard all of them I will have 3 days a week with JOLST time to fill up!
Meanwhile, back to the train of thought; James and Alison were discussing relationships and, as is often the case, self examination of themselves and James said that he has a list of things he has narrowed down that if he does them every day, he maintains a level of happiness. He did recite them but it doesn’t matter what the list consists of because its going to be a personal thing -but that’s what I want do – develop my list – my own peronalized happiness list.
Sounds good right? true -and I believe it is a good thing but there will be things on the list that I will resist – like excersise. I know that I feel better when I ecersise than when I don’t. Its not news or novel – no one can argue this – its common knowledge. But, regardless, I am not the only person on the planet that spends more time talking myself out of doing it than actually doing it. To that end I believe a check list might be something I can make work for me – at least I hope I can.
So, step one of operation ’Happy List’ - plan to make a list. This is going to be a process. Check!
I already have one item on my happiness list and that is to blog every day – item 1 of 1 – Check!
I feel happier already.
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